Something remarkable

Around 4PM this afternoon, I took a good look at Anthony and said "I need chocolate grahams, or some sugar, or something". He responded with "I want a chocolate cupcake with chocolate frosting." So, we bundled up and headed to the grocery store. We spied a large, 8x8 chocolate frosted brownie. It was big. It was FULL of chocolate, sugar, fat... there was NO nutritional information on the tin. Anthony was holding it, and we are looking at each other. "what do you think?" he asks. "I think it makes me scared to buy it." I respond. "me too" he admits.
Woh... really? Did we really just REJECT a frosted brownie fiesta?
So, we wander around a bit. What did we settle on to ease the sugar crazies?
Sugar free angel food cake, sugar free chocolate pudding and strawberries.
Holy Shit.
Now, anyone who knows me knows I NEVER turn down sweets. This, for me, was a really amazing moment. Not only did I opt for sugar free sweets over the real thing, I felt REALLY good about it! I felt like it satisfied my craving. To top it off, I didn't even attack it when we returned home. I made dinner and only now, 3 1/2 hours later, am I enjoying it. (Yes, I am chowing as I write)
I am am self proclaimed choco-holic. As we stood in line to check out, I thought about getting that pack of chocolate grahams. But, I didn't. It wasn't as hard as it used to be. Before this surgery, I would have felt powerless against a sugar binge. Now, using the tool this surgery gave me, I have CONTROL. I know that ignorance in no longer bliss, and if I don't look at labels and just assume that the sugar and fat isn't that high, I run the risk of seriously feeling like garbage. No, I don't dump like some people do, but the reaction I have is bad enough for me to be careful.
So many things in my life have changed because of this blesses, blesses surgery. I am so incredibly lucky I was able to have it, not suffer complications, and to have such an amazing support system.