I feel so miserable right now. I have been on the verge of crying all morning. I can't believe how tired I am. I am trying to get stuff done, because office team called and I am definitely starting work tomorrow, and so after this, I basically have to work until my water breaks so there will be no time, unless I work all weekend on house stuff, but my body just won't work today. I am pissed about the GD thing, because I am thinking I really do have it now, especially after last nights reading, which means more tests, inducing Sammy, and that weight loss didn't effect it at all. I got on the scale and I am 270 lbs, which means SO FAR I have put on about 40 lbs in this pregnancy, and it's only going to get higher. I feel dreadful, I feel guilty for not going to the dinner tonight for Brian. I am already hot and uncomfortable, and it's only May. I don't know how I am going to do all of this with 13 students and a full time job. I don't even know how I am going to get through today. I wish you were home with me to hold me. I don't know what is going to make me feel any better.... I just feel like I am out of control..........