Inadequacies

Disclaimer: I CLEARY have a very bad 'tude today. If you don't want to read the rantings of a lunatic, feel free to navigate away from this page. Now.

There are some days I feel like I just fell off the turnip truck. I feel like a total fool. Moron. Idiot. Jerk. It usually has to do with keeping track of my schedule with teaching, and now, with work. I told a student last week her lesson would be at a certain time. Then, I forgot about that, and a few days ago, sent out the schedule via e-mail, putting her at a different time. She didn't check her e-mail, and thus, didn't see the new time. But I'M the asshole for not remembering her original time in the first place. Oh, along with all 14 other students schedules. Oh, on top of working 8 hours PRIOR to going there to teach, and try to remember all of their schedules. I do the same thing on Saturdays. I have double booked people. But then I run into a situation like this past Saturday. I had (have?) a student who came to me for a few weeks on Saturday at 12. Then, cancelled a few lessons in a row and asked if I could put her in for Friday. I told her I didn't think my work schedule would accomidate it, and then assumed (stupid me) that meant that she would be coming at her normal time on Saturday. She didn't. I e-mailed her and asked that she please let me know if she was not going to be coming to a lesson, as I was waiting for her. She called and said she thought I was still going to get back to her regarding Fridays. Ok. So, I email her back: Would you like to come Friday? I have some time (This was obviously before I was back to work, but I was working with the cleaning place) I never heard back from her. I assumed she was pissed and not coming back. I didn't hear from her that weekend or all the next week. So, yes, I wrote her off. This past Saturday, I decided to take a day off and not teach (of course I got sick, but that's just the way it goes, right?) So, I am out with the hubs and babes and I get a call from this student "letting me know" she was not going to make it to her lesson this week. Whhaaa??? I haven't heard from her in over a week, she hasen't been to a saturday lesson in a MONTH and she expects that things are still, I don't know, normal? Is this all in my head? Maybe I really am an asshole.
I don't know.
I just don't have a mind for these things. Even when I write things down, I suck.
So, here is is, Sunday night already. Getting ready for working all week again. It's supposed to snow a lot tonight - somthing like 8-10 inches. But Yale doesn't close. So, I will be working tomorrow. I've already told my UNH students that is classes are cancelled tomorrow, so are our lessons. I am not going to rush my ass over there in the fucking snow to teach 3 kids.
Ok, I clearly have an attitude problem today. I think I will add an disclamer on the top of this blog...
Ok, that's better.
I have nothing good to say tonight. But, I don't have to. It's my blog and I'll bitch if I want to.
'night.