Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I have a serious problem

With chocolate.
A few weeks ago, I was BOT and it was easy. I felt good. Yesterday and today it has been so hard, and today I went WAY overboard. WAY WAY WAY overboard.
I feel horified and ashamed. I haven't felt this bad about the way I have eaten since before surgery. I am so scared this is the beginning of a downward spiral of poor choices. What if I can't stop myself? I can't go back to where I was. I would just die.
Please someone slap me around or something. I don't know what it is going to take to get BOT.

2 comments:

  1. Oh, Kel! I'm sorry you had a bad day. But, you know what? It's just a day. It's over and tomorrow you get to have a different day, with a blank slate of choices. Even if you have a month of bad days, tomorrow is not related. I believe in you. I am so proud of you and how well you are doing on this very difficult quest! You are inspiring me to make better choices all the time!

    I think we need to set up a new reward system, like x number of days without chocolate = a pedicure or something. We both deserve a few rewards here and there! Name your prize, and we'll do it together!

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  2. I think Penny has a really good idea! Set up some rewards for yourself. Make them frequent at first then a bit further apart later on.... you can do this!!

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