I was in a really bad place last night. I felt really alone, and I went WAY overboard on some things I should not be eating.
I think I have figured out what's going on. The hubs and I have started talking about baby #2. I do really want to have another baby. I am only 9 months out and still have about 50 lbs to my goal, and at least 40 till I feel I want to get pregnant (I want to be under 200). I started feeling pressure (not from hubby, from myself) about losing the weight as fast as possible. As soon as I started feeling that way was when it "suddenly' became hard to be on track. I think I was sabotaging myself in some way. Maybe I'm not ready to be talking about the next baby. I suddenly felt desperate and in reaction, I started making poor choices through out the day. I am also wondering if this anxiety is causing my stomach pain as well. It all seems to be happening at the same time.
I'm sorry, you don't need to hear all my psycho-babble. Just figuring some of this stuff out for myself might help me BOT, at least for today (or 5 min!) Thanks for reading
About Me
- Kelliann
- I am a 35 year old wife and mother to gorgeous 6 year old and 3 year old boys! I had weight loss surgery in June of 2008 and it was the best decision of my life. I have lost weight, but I am figuring out that no surgery can rid someone of addiction. I am moving forward in my life step by step to recover from this and get to my goal. Life is crazy, but it's beautiful! Come along for the ride with me!
me, the morning of my first 5K
This was back in August. I am 14 months out here
Me, 10 months out 4/27/09
Me, 10 months out 4/27/09
Me, 7 months out 1/24/09
hubby cut the top of my head off!
Me, 7 months out 1/24/09
Me, before surgery, side view 6/11/08
Me, day of surgery 6/11/08
It could very well be causing both! You could always put the baby talk on hold for awhile, give it a certain amount of time rather than a weight goal and have it be just to talk about it again, not where that's your "start to try" time.
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