Updates

First, I LOVE this chilly weather. I want to get out a sweater, but I won't, because I want to FEEL the CHILLY. It reminds me that fall is indeed on the way. Fall is probably my favorite time of year. Lots going on this fall, too. My cousin, Tara, is getting married and my bro and his fam are flying in for the wedding. SO EXCITED about that.
I notice that when I am down, anxious, nervous about things, like I have been lately, I miss my brother even more. The hubs and I have actually talked about moving to Seattle. I would only go if my mom went. She would only go if my grandmother went, and you can imagine how well THAT would go over. Um, not at all. So, for now, we are here. But, I wonder why it is I feel like I wouldn't be SO anxious, etc, if I was closer to my brother. I mean, we have a wonderful relationship, but why is it that I only think of him? Hmm, something to ponder.
Eating is going ok. Usually when it's just "ok", that means I am over eating, or eating too many carbs, or something. But now, it's just ok because I'm not really eating very much. I've have 2 protein shakes and 4 oz of low-fat cheese today. Yeah, that's it. I'm hungry, but don't know what I want. Nothing is appealing, and when I find something I think might be, I end up just picking at it. I suppose that's not terrible...or is it? I dunno, and it makes my head hurt to think about it.
Being home with the kids has not turned out to be quite as bad as I thought it would be, so far. The big difference has been that I have absolutely no time to do anything. And I mean anything. No going to the bathroom, no eating lunch or getting a drink without a baby crying for body warmth or a toddler crying because I am not giving him my undivided attention at any given moment.
Now, the toddler is in bed, but the infant is up in full force. At least my partner in crime is home and helping. Maybe I'll go try to eat something. Hmm. Maybe not.