more active day=more tired mama

If you are reading this blog, you are probably very tired of hearing me complain.
The following blog is no different, so feel free to navigate away now.
My eating today has been seriously stellar. I actually mean it. Even in the face of going to the Milford Oyster Festival. This is the first time I have EVER been to a faire and not bought SOMETHING (usually food related). Today the hubs and I wanted to spend a little time with Josh on his own. So, we brought him to this faire, which he loves. Hubs and I were not as prepared as we would have liked, but we did not succumb to any faire-food temptation. I was SO proud of us.
Now, that said, we did a lot of walking at this faire. From parking in Istanbul, to walking through the vendors, it's probably more activity than I have seen in a little bit. And baby, I can feel it. I am achy, and I feel tired all in my "insides". Have you ever felt tired from the inside out? It's... well... exhausting. So, I am kinda glad I didn't try starting right back to my exercise routine yet. I mean, ok, I just had a baby 2 weeks ago, but recovery has gone so well, I just thought my body was back to normal. Maybe not... I guess I should just start slow.
The anxiety is hard tonight. I think because I am so tired, and Sam is having some tummy trouble, and it makes me nervous. You think that when you have a child already, that you are prepared for things. But, each child is so different, you can't possibly be prepared. It's like being a brand new mama all over again. It's stressful.
One more bitch - regarding breast feeding. I think it sucks that I don't make enough milk to feed my child, yet, I have to deal with all the uncomfortable aspects of it - leaking (TMI, I know) painful breasts, and even more painful nipples. I know, I know, TMI. But, then again, I don't think anyone reads this blog anyway.