Sometimes a blank page (read: screen) can be daunting. I haven't blogged in so long that I feel I should, and I have been thinking for weeks about all of the things I want to say. Now, of course, it's all gone.
Well, let's start with the job. I am no longer working my temp 9-5 job. My choice. I decided to get out of there and be home more with Josh. I am watching my "nephew" (ok, he's technically my 2nd cousin, but more like a nephew) as well, 3 days per week. I have had a flood of new private students, which I am THRILLED about, so between getting a little $$ from sitting for the second toddler, and the new students, I should be making just about the same amount (read: just under). No, really. It does seem, on paper anyway, to be a good choice.
It's amazing to be what I feel I don't deserve when I am home with the kids. For example, this morning I really wanted to jump in the shower before I started my toddler chase. The hubs was ready to go to work, and the baby had just woken up. I asked hubby if he would mind getting the baby up while I jumped in the shower. He had no problem with this (he's a keeper) but I spent the whole shower fretting that I didn't deserve this 10 minutes of steamy bliss because Anthony had to go to work.
Uh, huh? I know. It sounds a little crazy. But I notice that a lot. I feel like I have to make something up to Anthony because I am home and he has to go to work. I dunno. Maybe I do. But at the end of a day with 2 toddlers, no one can tell me I didn't work!! I guess I should go back to therapy.
One huge perk of being home is being able to start my exercise routine up again. So, I got in 35 minutes yesterday, and I think I am going to do a workout tonight. I am giving myself the rest of the summer to get down to 200 lbs. I am 223 as of this morning. I have been in the 220's for WAY too long... once I get to 200... who knows? Maybe I'll put on 15lbs or so in baby weight (wink, wink, nudge, nudge)
ok, I'm off to get a workout in. 200 - here I come!