Birthdays

well, today is my little man's birthday. Two years ago at 12:34am, my little Joshua was born. He has been nothing but joy and light in our lives. He is sweet, cuddly, stubborn, lovey, gorgeous and amazing. Entering into the "terrible twos" is not a piece of cake, but he is such a good boy most of the time, you just have to work through those tantrum moments. I don't remember what life was like before him, and I don't want to. Now, if he only had a little brother or sister to play with... hmm, We'll have to work on that...
My eating has been horrendous for the last 3 days. From Josh's birthday party through today, I have eaten a LOT of CRAP. It has to stop. I will eat my way back up to 365 lbs in seconds flat. NO WAY. I've learned (unfortunatly) how to eat the bad stuff a little at a time, all freakin day, so that I don't dump. This is NOT something I ever wanted to learn/know, but here it is, and now I have to deal with it. This is life. Sometimes I am not going to eat well. when this happens, I have to learn to get things under control. I have to learn that it's not the end of the world, and that it doesn't have to lead to days-weeks of eating poorly. When will I learn all this? Really, really soon. I hope.
4 weeks till our trip to Seattle and I am super excited. It will be like a real vacation. Anthony hasen't been on a vacation since our honeymoon. Josh and I took a trip to Seattle last May, but that was more about running away than vacationing....
4 weeks of 12 hour days left. Pray for me.
Ok, my stomach is churning from my yucky eating today. I'm going to go crash and hope I feel better in the AM